Imagine for a moment that you are in a treatment program. Let’s say that you’re placed in rehab for your addiction to iced honey buns, from the gas station, conveniently located next to your house. (My Actual Reality) One day, during your favorite group session, you’re asked to step out by a woman you had […]Read More Iced Honeybuns and High Heels
Yep, my first recorded podcast with no editing, no sound effects, no critiquing. Just us two, as we are, in that moment. as it should always be. 🙂 Be sure to checkout my interview with Matt Nappo on MINDDOGTV! Maybe check out his channel 😉 Maybe even subscribe? 😉 Matt Nappo https://www.youtube.com/user/shoeplaxRead More live? you mean, without editing?
i’m sorry i shut you out sometimes i shut people out. and i often shut out the ones that matter most.. i ghosted my therapist last week.. straight up missed our morning session.. ignored her phone calls.. didn’t return her voicemail.. didn’t listen to her voicemail, honestly.. just put my phone away for now.. out […]Read More i will call you back.
WHAT IS A BRAIN DUMP? A brain dump is simply the act of dumping all the contents of your mind onto paper as one might dump the contents of a purse onto a table. You are spilling out stressors, your nagging thoughts, your pesky annoyances. I am going to dump my brain how I want […]Read More Brain Dump
Eating disorder, OCD, anxiety, panic disorder, depression. For YEARS I have let these voices, fears, and nervousness plan my day, what I eat, how much I sleep, my relationships, my health, my happiness. I’ve decided to challenge myself this year and set a few realistic goals to gain back control of my life. Get a […]Read More Realistic Resolutions
Dear Body, I want to apologise for how I’ve treated you. I’m sorry for thinking you’re not good enough. I’m sorry for starving you. I’m sorry I let my mind play tricks. I’m sorry for causing you physical pain. I’m sorry I don’t see the beauty other’s see. I’m told you’re beautiful. I’m sorry […]Read More Pinky Promise.
To You. Thank you for not giving up on me when that’s all I want to do. Thank you for telling me I’m beautiful because that’s not what I see. Thank you for buying me food I would eat. That’s the best thing you could do. Thank you for caring. Thank you for all the […]Read More Thank You.
I came across a quote my old roomie wrote down for me. “One of the most courageous decisions you’ll ever make is to finally let go of what is hurting your heart and soul.”-Brigitte Nicole. I wish letting go of anything was easy, but it’s not. This quote doesn’t just apply to my disorder either. […]Read More Let It Go!
. My disorder is a mental illness with a physical aspect being the side effect. You can’t see what’s going on inside my head, but you can clearly see what’s going on by my appearance. My bulimarexia and obsessive compulsive disorder are one. When grocery shopping, I take the same route every time, avoiding Iles […]Read More 10 Things I Need You to Know About My Disorder.
I went back and forth in my head last night on whether or not I was ready to share this picture, but thought it would be wise to visually show you first how much this disease really affected me. During this time I was extremely scared for my life and took the picture on the […]Read More 12-4-2017 Numbers on the Scale.